Ron Trainor

I will make this short my Papa Bear as I write you personally now but I wanted the world to know that you were the most special man this world has come across and as the time goes by this only becomes more apparent. You were unique, definitely one of a kind and how fortunate I was to have you as my Father. What a blessing what a gift. I know you are making progress even from up there, an innovator a man of persistence you knew your time had come. I can only pray that one day we'll be together again. All my Love xoxox

My Pappa,

 

As I flew close to stars on the 11th, I prayed to the heavens that you were ok. I stared at the stars for a sign. 5 months already Dad, I can't believe it. I remembered how it felt to have you in my life. I miss your spirit, your smile, our laughs together. So many times, I want to pick up the phone and call you to tell you something and then my heart sinks. The pain is so raw, I'm so fortunate to have such wonderful friends and especially my Mother in my life who are kind enough to guide me through the dark times. As I travel I take your passport with me, I will take you wherever I go because I know how desperate you were to see the world. Soon I'm 34 and this is when I would hear from you, we would share stories about my childhood, how you envisioned me turning out, we would talk about our family and those special times in our life when it was whole. God blessed this earth by bringing you here and its a deep loss that you are gone. I love you so much Dad, I miss you more than words can express. oxoxoxoxoox

Finally, I can put up my message to you...

 

4 months gone, one birthday gone, one Christmas gone, one New Years gone and no Daddio.

I'm often daydreaming of the good & bad, always coming to the same conclusion. The dreams whilst I sleep where I talk to you, they help me when I wake.

My Father what have you learned up there? What would you do different if you were down here? Can you share with me?

My precious Father may I feel your embrace, each day so I can be reminded of the love we shared.

I miss you more and more each day, it just doesn't feel real.

I Love you!

 

ps. I often dream of being with you and we talk just like we did when you were here. I love those moments, I want to always dream like that.

 

pss. Mom and I talk about you all the time, its so great to hear the stories to relive the life we had when we were all together. How special those moments are, I will never forget. I miss you Dad, I so so miss you. oxoxoxox

Dad, its been three months already but to me its only yesterday. I cannot even read the memories shared on this page because it completely breaks me down. I think about you so much, the little treasures I was able to keep from you and your house are the only things that matter. Some even hold your smell, it makes me feel close to you. I don't want to bother you much because I know you have a new world of responsibilities but know that I pray to you through Jesus. I know you are ok but I just really miss your comforting spirit knowing you are on earth with me, its hard to grasp still that you are gone. I'm alone with my feelings nobody to share with but there's a reason for everything, you taught me that. I will hold my head high and walk through life with the confirmation that one day soon we'll be together again. You know all the dreams I shared, you know me better than I know myself so maybe that is the journey I need to take whilst you are absent from me. I love you Dad and miss you terribly. All my love, Carey